So... It's been a while.

So the last time I updated this was after the first day of my senior year, now I'm graduated. It's about to be 2023 and the past two years have honestly been the biggest blur of my whole life. I feel the need to update this and use it as an outlet.

Disclaimer, I wanna be real here I wanna share my story and because this is my website I'll do just that.

I encourage you to read the previous posts before this.

Before this post it was my first day of senior year, then I stopped postibg. I had covid, things had gone downhill...

On October 5th of 2021 me and another person who I will leave anonymous due to confidentiality and due to recent circumstances I don't know how closely I want to be associated to this person. We left that morning. It was foggy and seemed to be the perfect day. We drove without any directions appart from the old copy of a kids states information book with bits of major highways. Once we were out of Ohio we felt as if we were invincible. Then night time came and we kept driving. We made a mistake and got pulled over the next morning around 7 in the morning. From there is where I go it alone. I got placed in a 24 hour holding cell waiting for my parents to come collect me. The reason that I'm writing this is so I don't forget. Another thing that is Important is that me and this other person are supposed to be in an almost 2 year long relationship and making plans but for personal reasons greater than I'd like to share at this time.

After I was picked up the next morning my parents dropped me off at this place that was a mix between a Christian boarding school and a mental health place. It was interesting to say the least. I feel as if I should spare a lot of the details.

The place where I was had a strict 15 month treatment, that's supposed to fix you.

I ended up getting kicked out after 8 ish months, I planned to leave on my 18th birthday anyways but I didn't know what I would face until I got home.

I remember sitting up the entire night on the way home in the hotel bed in a quiet room essentially alone. I had lived with up to 32 other girls at once and I had almost no sense of privacy yet we had to be private cause if we werent then we'd hear about it.

Your probably asking why I got kicked out the thing is if I know you I'll tell you, dm me if your that curious. I don't feel comfortable talking about it because parts of it lead up to current problems.

It was great to be back at my house but I knew that honeymoon phase would end. I knew I'd fall back. I knew that I would struggle. I was on probation while I was in Missour, yea I was in a different state this whole time. Anyway somewhere in my head decided it was good to pretend like I wouldn't be violating my probation when I went home but I did. I wasn't supposed to leave until January and I was home for June. I had to go to court and I had to do community service. I got off in the middle of September.

Because I was at this place I ended up graduating later, I finished at the beginning of Septembe, with the ways the school aspect ran didn't provide enough time for me to complete it faster but if I would have stayed I wouldn't be done with school yet.

Since I'm out of school I don't have much to do. I had a job and lost it and that was a few months ago. I also have an interview set on Monday which is amazing. Maybe everything will start looking up.

I'll keep you updated with everything that happens and maybe when I'm more sure of my future and the path I'm choosing I'll expand more on what happened. Sorry for the lack of pictures in this one. Maybe I'll dedicate a post for that.

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